Showing posts with label Your Calling. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Your Calling. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

122. My Humble Takeaways From TEDxBroadway 2012



I had such an incredible time at the TEDxBroadway conference!!! Soooooo inspiring for the future of Broadway!

(For more info about TED conferences go to ted.com, see my post #114, or check out Howard Sherman's LiveBlog of the event for alllll the nitty-gritty details.)

Every presenter at TEDxBroadway addressed the following very important question...

What's the BEST Broadway can be in 20 years? 

No conclusions were made...but that wasn't the point. The POINT was to relish the question and explore all the GLORIOUS possibilities, all the fantastic OPPORTUNITIES that the future could hold for Broadway...if we're willing to work together to help CREATE that new reality. AWESOME!!!

Mostly, I just sat and listened and observed and let it all soak in. But I was moved to take a few notes to share with ya'll. So here were some "take-away's" from some of my favorite presenters at TEDxBroadway. 

I hope that this post will help inspire YOU to want to be a part of creating a thriving future for LIVE theatre on Broadway and everywhere...from sea to shining sea!!!

The following are my humble takeaways from the many super-fantastic speakers that shared their hearts, insights and crazy-crack-pot-genius with all of us. (Please excuse me if these quotes aren't word perfect...It was dark and I was writing fassssst. Did my very best to stay true to the intent of the speaker's message.)

"The timeline to 2032 will be written by some of the very talented people in this room. We create ideas and ideas create the future." - Ken Davenport 

"We must ask: why is this LIVE?" - Jordan Roth


"No one sets out to create something unremarkable...If it falls short, it doesn't change the original intent and good will." - Jordan Roth

"Theatre can become part of the social fabric of people's lives." - Randy Weiner

"This show is so incredible that it doesn't need a marketing budget." - Randy Weiner (referring to Sleep No More

"We are poised for another renaissance and creative forces will lead the renaissance." - Patricia Martin

"This generation experiences truth as emotional truth. They believe what they can feel." - Patricia Martin

"Forget an out-of-town try-out. What about an internet try-out?" - Matt Sax

"Great customer service is about creating that total experience. Don't miss out on the opportunity for human connection in every interaction." - Frank Eliason

"How you treat your employees dictates the quality of customer service they will give." - Frank Eliason

"Drive change by storytelling, not by numbers." - Frank Eliason

"Create the future and let other people adapt to you." - Kara Larson

"Is this really the right audience?" - Steve Gullans

"Broadway is an idea factory...We open hearts and minds." - Damian Bazadona

"Expanding the exposure of Broadway is the way to grow." - Damian Bazadona

"We must increase financial opportunities to attract great talent and innovators to Broadway." - Damian Bazadona

"...Cooperation..." - Barry Kahn

"I'm in. Are you?" - Vincent Gassetto

"How can we upgrade?" - Juan Enriquez

"Does Google equal immortality?" - Juan Enriquez

"We are all self-created voyeurs." - Juan Enriquez (referring to Facebook)

"What kind of humanity do we want to create?" - Juan Enriquez

"Put all the pettiness aside and think about the good of Broadway." - Joseph Craig

"Don't be the turkey." - Greg Mosher

"We must ask ourselves: What business are we in?" - Greg Mosher

"Read The Innovators Dilemma." - Greg Mosher

"You can't Google a broken heart. That's why we need Shakespeare." - Greg Mosher

And my favorite takeaway from the entire day...

"How are YOU going to take what theatre does best and reinvent that tradition in the future?" - Juan Enriquez 


Big huge thanks to Ken Davenport, Damian Bazadona & Jim McCarthy for organizing the event.

And thank you to the generous co-sponsors:
...and the supporting sponsors:

You can follow @TEDxBroadway on Twitter...if you're into that sort of thing.

And...word on the street is...there may be another TEDxBroadway next year!!! Whoo-hoo!!!

Here's to the future of live theatre on Broadway! Let's make it AWESOME! 

Loves,
Virginia


Yes, it's true...I actually had business cards made with the blog address on it. I KNOW IT'S SILLY! But I love this blog sooooo much, I couldn't help it!!! They came in handy too...I actually gave out a few at the event. LOL! So weird to introduce myself as an "actor-blogger." But, if the shoe fits...  :-P

  

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

117. Interview with Daniel Talbott (Juilliard): Part Two

For those of you that are just tuning-in...This is a continuation of yesterday's post. If you liked that one, this one's about to knock your socks off. Daniel is a truth-teller. Nothing too personal to discuss. Nothing off-limits to reveal. He's an incredibly wonderful and courageous human being! I LOOOOOOOVE this man...

Without further ado...PART TWO of my interview with Mr.Daniel Talbott...Enjoy!


(The following was recorded on January 7, 2012, and lovingly transcribed into text by my mother, Dorothy Wilcox, the fastest typist in the west! Thanks, Mom!)

Virginia: So tell me about your experience at Juilliard…

Daniel: Juilliard is the best thing that ever happened to me, seriously, for the bad as much as for the good, if not more.  It’s an amazing school full of brilliant and human and flawed people. It gave me a home base to come to New York and work every day of my life as an actor.  I was in the middle of my class.  There were kids that were straight out of high school.  There were kids that had come out of a graduate program.  I was so happy I was in the middle ‘cause I wasn’t burnt out, and I wasn’t overly intellectualizing stuff.  But at the same time, I also wasn’t so terrified that I was just out of school...I had already had an apartment and done stuff like that. 

It was really hard my first year because the great love of my life, up to that point, and I ended up in class together after we had been broken up for a year and a half.  And it was really, really hard for both of us. I think we both did okay with dealing with it.  They ended up leaving after the first year which I think was maybe easier on both of us, but it’s sad. I mean it’s not what they chose to do with their life, but if they had chosen that, I had really hoped that they would not have chosen to leave because it’s a great opportunity for anybody.  I mean, we dealt with it, but the first year was really hard because of that. So, you know, they didn’t come back, and I feel like that really opened me up.  And so I felt like my second year and third year I was much more able to work.  I was much more at ease.  Because we weren’t tiptoeing around each other 24/7,…it was so hard for both of us. 

And then, in my third year – the third year was the hardest year for me because I knew I was getting married, I was engaged.  My now wife – at the time, my fiancĂ© – thought that we had messed up and got pregnant...I was also feeling like maybe it wasn’t the right fit for me in my third year.  And I had also started Rising Phoenix Rep.  I also knew I wanted to direct and write plays.  I knew I wanted to act, but it was a really, really hard year.  And there was this day we really thought my wife was pregnant.  I had a really good attendance record, and I skipped class so I could go to the doctor’s appointment with her.  I think someone chewed me out about it, one of my teachers or something, and I went off on them.  I was really angry about it.  I can’t remember what happened, but I was really, really upset.  I remember I was shaking, and I was walking through Central Park, and I called Kathy [Hood].  I said, “I really need to talk to you.  I think I’m going to leave the school.  I’m not going to finish it.  I’m really fed up. I’m really sick of being treated like this by certain people.” She said, “Why don’t you come in and talk to me first before you make a decision.”  Kathy’s kind of the great mama of the Juilliard program.  She’s amazing.  She said, “Michael [Kahn] wants to talk to you.”  I think he cancelled his trip to Washington to talk to me.  And so I came back to the school.  I think I was crying and shaking.  I was really pissed off.  I was a mess.  And I went in and I talked to Michael, and he was amazing.  I remember sitting in his office, and he told me, "You’re not going to leave this school.  You’re going to graduate from this school."  And he told me very personal stuff about himself and where he was at, that I reminded him of himself when he was younger in some ways.  And because of Michael and because of Kathy I stayed at that school, and I’m so proud that I graduated.  I’m so happy that they believed in me enough, and they stood by me enough to tell me I had to stay… 

The fourth year amazing. It was Rep season, and you start getting a little bit more breathing room which was good for me.  And doing rehearsal a lot, which was great.  And I had a play that was at the Young Playwrights’ Festival at the Royal Court, and the school made it possible for me to fly back and forth to London and also do Rep season.  So I got to go to London, which was a huge thing for me.  And the Royal Court’s probably my favorite theatre in the world.  It was such a dream come true for me…It was an amazing year.  I feel so lucky and proud to have graduated from that school, and I would say 98% of my teachers I’m still really close friends with and profoundly changed my life in a great way. 

Virginia:  So in your day-to-day professional life now, with a career that you’re continuing to build and your many, many hats that you've taken on – as a playwright and as a director, producing and artistic directing and acting– what do you feel have been the most valuable contributions to your current work that you learned at Juilliard? 

Daniel:  I think everything.  I think you learn from everything that happens in your life and that you put that into your work. I think the theatre is this ultimate kind of – for lack of a better word – truth box that represents back to us what we are, in every way -- as a society, as people, as a world, as a culture, as a community.  So I think every life experience that you have:  the good, the bad, the shitty, the great experiences, the crappy experiences, you can transform all of that into work and flip it into beauty and into art.  That’s, to me, what you do.  Every experience that I’ve ever had at Juilliard and just in the world has influenced my work, and my career, how I view things and how I view the world and how I view life and art. I think too much in our culture we have this thing where we separate the professional and the personal , and you can’t really do that.  I think your work should be greatly personal. I think you should be professional.  I think you shouldn’t come into work and be a wreck and not be able to work.  But as long as you can work and are allowing other people to work, it should be deeply personal.  So it’s all tied in together for me.  My family is part of theatre, the theatre is part of my family.  It’s all one thing to me…

My life is...I like simplicity.  I try to simplify my life as much as possible.  I feel like life is my work, my friends, and my family.  And that’s my life…taking walks, I love the ocean, I love whales, I love tennis. (Laughs.) I just try to be very simple about it and I put everything I am into my work, my family and friends.  I don’t think Juilliard – I don’t think any school – is the right school for everybody.  And I think there were kids in my class that came in that were so technically proficient and then became overly technically proficient at that school which is the kind of the “bad Juilliard speak” that you hear about and all that stuff.  And then I feel like there were kids that were just really raw, kind of messy, kind of hot messes, like myself. I’m a messy, kind of process-y, nutty fuckin actor and theatre artist.  And for me, Juilliard was the best thing, again, that ever happened to me.  It was the best school I could have gone to because it gave me very strong technical [training] – not that it’s just a technical school – but it balanced me. I think so of much of life and so much of art is balance…

Al Pacino has this great thing that he says about how acting is like walking a tightrope. Walking a tightrope is always active.  It’s always moving forward.  There’s always conflict and extremity. There’s a limit of time.  And you also can’t over balance one over the other or you’ll fall off.  So there’s this perfect alignment that’s moving forward with…extremity of action and in an extreme objective way.  And so I think it is a perfect analogy with acting.  Juilliard balanced me as an actor...But I don’t think it’s the school for everybody.  I think it’s a brilliant fuckin school.  But I think as an artist you have to have a strong sense of why you’re doing it from every part of yourself.  And if you’re just doing it from your neck up, to please other people, you’re not being an artist.  I mean Jackson Pollock, everyone thought he was fuckin insane.  Francis Bacon everyone thought he was crazy.   Joseph Cornell was an agoraphobe.  They fuckin thought he was crazy, and he was a genius. Do you know what I mean?  But he was doing what called him.  Another thing that I think happens in our culture is that people eliminate the uniqueness of the personal, you get people trying to imitate other things that have been successful  in order to have success.  You can’t do that in the theatre.

I think there have been times, absolutely there’ve been wonderful times in American theatre history that you’ve gotten these periods... like the Al Pacino, Gene Hackman, Dustin Hoffman period, you know...the Eugene O’Neill, Tennessee Williams period.  None of those people imitated other people.  That’s not how they created their success.   They were just artists.  They found their own personal, unique, explosive way to create.  Like Kim Stanley or Laurette Taylor … The people who you remember are the people who have created a unique personal path through art, and that have been greatly influenced by everyone else that they’ve worked with and everyone else that has inspired them. And so I feel like I was able to be who I am, and I got four years to explode that and challenge that and get a very strong foundation, so that I could hopefully do that eight times a week instead of doing it three times a week. You know what I mean?  I would never be the theatre artist I am without that school. 

Virginia:  So with regard to the personal thing.  I want to transition into a little bit about Yosemite, which is your most recent project. 

Daniel:  It’s probably my most personal play.

Virginia:  So what are some of the personal elements that you’re excited to share through this creative work?

Daniel:  I don’t know if excited is the word.  I’m like fuckin terrified…  I think that I’m such a beginning playwright.  It’s hard to even call myself a playwright.  There are so many playwrights who I admire that I think that are so further along than I am... It is a weird play…I don’t know if anyone’s going to get it.  I don’t know if it’s going to mean anything to anyone else.  I could see people loving it.  I could see people and critics just completely trashing it, but I’m proud of it. It's the thing I'm most proud to have written.

End of Recording.

Ohhhhh, Daniel. WE are so proud of you tooooooo! Your journey from young-baseball-player-and-hopeful-someday-actor to....now-playmaker-theatre-artist-husband-father-and-friend -- is sooooo inspiring.

You are clearly on your right path and I applaud all of the courage and heart it took for you to get to where you are now!!! Thanks for sticking with it. We allll benefit from your decision to follow your calling and live this crazy-artist-life to be able to CREATE and tell your story...in the way that ONLY you can. Thank you for that.

Sending you love and wishing you tons of success with Yosemite and beyond!!!

I am sooooo grateful to have had this opportunity to record this moment in time. (It is soooooo awesome to have this blog as an excuse to talk with really f-ing cool people about how they got to be where they are...and then have the privilege of sharing it online! YAY!)

It's great to be able support a theatre artist in process...who's life is dedicated to exploring the human condition and reflecting it back for your entertainment and contemplation. CLICK HERE TO GET YOUR TICKETS TO YOSEMITE.



Gotta run. My computer's about to run out of juice...And I've got to grab some food before I head to the theatre...to see the first preview of Yosemite.

Hope to see you all there.

Loves,
V

P.S. RE: Monologue practice for my up-coming grad school auditions...Did all four of my monologues for my friend H. She was around to see my monologues last year too. And I didn't show them to very many people last year...I was waaaay to scared. But this year...I'm doing these freakin' monologues for EVERYBODY, scared or not! And H said that she thinks I've shown some improvement over last year! Yay!!! Progress! Who could ask for anything mooooooore???


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

116. Interview with Daniel Talbott (Juilliard): Part One

Ladies & Gentlemen... This is the first in a series of interviews I will be posting with graduates of my schools of choice: Juilliard, Yale, and NYU.

This first interview is truly a dream come true for me! This guy has been an inspiration to me since my early teens. We did a production of A Christmas Carol together in the Bay Area in the '90s and I have been subtly stalking him ever since. ;-p

Please welcome, Juilliard graduate and my friend Mr. Daniel Talbott:

(THUNDEROUS APPLAUSE...WHISTLING...CHEERS, etc.)


(The following was recorded on January 7, 2012, and lovingly transcribed into text by my mother, Dorothy Wilcox, the fastest typist in the west! Thanks, Mom!)

Virginia:  First of all, please introduce yourself, say where you’re from originally, where you went to school and where you live now.

Daniel:  My name is Daniel Talbott. (Laughs.)

Virginia:  With two t’s?

Daniel:  (Laughs.) With two t’s.  I was born in the Bay Area, and I moved all around with my mom.  And then I ended up back in the Bay Area for high school.  For middle school and high school, I lived with my grandparents in Piedmont, and went to high school at Piedmont High.  Then I went to San Francisco State for a year, and then Solano College Theatre for two years…I was a baseball player for a long time. And then I fell in love with theatre. I love my grandparents so much, but at first they were not supportive of that.  And so basically they were like, “If you’re going to do it, you’re going to do it by yourself.”  Which ended up being a huge blessing. I didn't have any money, and I didn’t really know what I was going to do. So I went to SF State to get my feet under me; and continue going to ACT and working at Center Rep, and auditioning and doing commercials and TV stuff.  And then I met George Maguire, who was working on Equus.

Virginia:  He was like, “Darling, come to my school.”

Daniel:  Yeah, he was great.  He said, “I don’t think you’re getting what you want.”  I mean, SF State was great.  It had some amazing teachers there especially this woman, Camille Howard, who was a huge influence on me.  She actually passed away a few years ago from cancer.  But she was amazing.  And then I met George.  Solano gave me a place to train in the day and work semi-professionally in the night.  Then I auditioned for Juilliard, and then came to New York…Now I live in Brooklyn. And I’m married. I have a son, Bailey, who’s six years old.  I run a theatre company, and try to do everything including hand out programs and clean bathrooms, just anything I can do in the theatre…I run Rising Phoenix Rep with a bunch of my best friends, my closest friends, my wife.  And we have the producing partner that we work off-Broadway with, Piece By Piece Productions, and then three of the heads of Rising Phoenix Rep are the artistic staff Rattlestick, and so it’s this very tight, wonderful family.  It came from Juilliard, marriage and other shows and then Julie Kline who I’ve known from the Bay Area since we were – basically since puberty.  So it’s this very like tight, wonderful family that works together all the time. 

Virginia:  I have to tell you, I’m not sure you remember this, but that production of Blood Brothers that you did at Solano College was the reason that I decided to go to Solano College.

Daniel:  Really?!  Oh, my God, wow.  It was the only musical I’ve ever done, and I’ve never done one since.  It took a lot of talking into for me to do that ‘cause I’m terrified of singing in public.

Virginia:  Well, I’m glad you overcame your fear.

Daniel:  I only overcame it once. (Laughs.)

Virginia:  Don’t worry, I’m sure you’ll have another opportunity again before this life is done.  But it was a transformational experience for me.  I remember I was sitting in the first row.  Yeah, I was in high school and, it was maybe – I don’t know – fall of my senior year.  And I was trying to figure out what I was going to do when , again, I relate to you with the whole “if I’m going to do this, nobody else is going to pay my way.”  Like I need to figure out how to make this happen for myself.

Daniel:  Which is often the best way in the theatre…it means that you want it…But I think there is something to this art form that it’s like this has to be it, in a way.  Do you know what I mean?  It’s the Stanislavski quote, “Love the art in yourself, not yourself in the art.”  And you have to go by that.  It’s gotta be.  ‘Cause there’s so much failure, and there’s so much rejection.  There’s so much not knowing that you have to -- the plays the thing.  So you have to be able to hold onto that.  And you know, I think it’s really good to have someone kind of pull the rug out from under you and go, if you’re going to do this and you’re gonna choose this kind of insane lifestyle then you’re going to do it whole-hog and you’re going to do it yourself and you’re going to figure it out.

And so someone doing that to me, especially coming from a family that financially could have made this different for me, that it was a really important good thing to have happen ‘cause it makes you go, yeah, that’s what I’m gonna do. 

And you start to piece it together, and you start to meet other people who have made their lives in the theatre.  And I was lucky to work with Berkeley Rep, and lucky to go to Solano, and work with actors there who were doing the same thing.  And just knowing that – it’s far from glamorous.

Virginia:  But it’s possible?

Daniel:  But it’s possible.  And it’s possible to have a family.  And it’s possible – we make our living as theatre artists and with film and TV as well.  And you find a combination of those three things.  Some months are much better than other months, and some Christmas’s Addie gets a lot better Christmas presents than others.  And there’s some Christmas’s we don’t give Christmas presents.  We pay the light bill.  But you piece it together and you make it happen.

Virginia:  A lot of people love acting and do it as a hobby.  But what made you decide to want to do it as your career?

Daniel:  It was weird.  Like I say, I was a baseball player.  And I was dating this girl Annie Gillan, who was this really wonderful woman from Piedmont.   And she had done a play at ACT, and we’d make films together.  We’d make – well, we’d call them films.  They were like glorified home videos.   But they were really fun.  And we’d make these kind of movies together… And she said there’s this thing, Young Conservatory, ACT, you should take an acting class.  And I think I was in the end of my sophomore year or beginning of junior year of high school.  Up to that point, I had played in like four or five baseball leagues a year...I wanted [to play] college baseball and maybe one day play major league baseball.  But  I was not tall enough and big enough.  I couldn’t compete on that level.  I could probably play college ball, but not the other.  And so Annie told me about Young Conservatory.  I just remember I took BART over there by myself.  I forgot how I even paid for the class.  I don’t remember. They may have given me a scholarship.

...And I’ve said this before and I don’t know how else to explain it, but before the class even started I got in the elevator at 30 Grant Street, and something made sense for the first time in my life.  It was before the class even started.  And I was like, I’m going to do this.  I know it sounds crazy but something in that elevator ride…just made sense.  I literally quit cold turkey playing baseball completely, and basically was like, if I’m shit at this – and I was really bad – I was really terrible…I was terrified.  I had horrible stage fright.  I couldn’t memorize a fuckin’ line.   I was horrible, but I was just like, I’m going to do this…This is going to sound so fuckin’ hokie, but some people say "I’ve got a calling to go into the priesthood" or "I had a calling to be a firefighter" or something, but it was the first time in my whole life that I felt whole.  It made sense and I just knew…And I can't describe it more than that, but it was like this was going to be my life, and I just made a decision. 

Virginia:  And here you are.

Daniel:  Yeah.  And I just was like I’m going to do this, and I’m going to make it happen.  I took two years to actually audition for a play.  I read everything I could.  I did classes.  I did everything I could.  I slowly – I trained like you do in baseball, like you physically do.  I kind of approached theatre like sports because I didn’t know anything else.  Instead of doing sit-ups I would read Stanislavski.  You know, I would jog and, I don’t know, think about like Uta Hagen or read The Fervent Years or whatever.  And so I started buying like every book I could, and I started taking as many classes as I could afford to take, and seeing as many plays as I could see at Berkeley Rep.  And my grandmother had season tickets to Berkeley Rep, so that was my first really big influence.

Virginia:  Having season tickets to Berkeley Rep was a huge influence for me too growing up too, one of my favorite theatres ever... So fast forward in your mind to your two years at Solano College.  I want to talk a little bit about your decision to transition from that training program and continuing your training at Juilliard.

Daniel:  Well, I had a really whacky upbringing.  That’s the word I’ll use.  I really love my family so much, but I came from a crazy background, and then landed with my grandparents. There was a lot of stuff just going on with my mom, just a lot of things in my life.

…I was really fucked up in the head when I went to Solano.  I was emotionally kind of vomiting out years and years of insanity from my family.  And so Solano for me gave me a place, like a safe haven and a lot of love to do that. 

…And I needed that…that bridge and that kind of safety pad away from my family to, I think, shed a lot of crap. And so Solano to me was not my best work, but it was the perfect thing in my life that I needed because I got a lot of love and a lot support from people that believed in me even when I was kind of trying to blow myself up...I was kind of trying to self-destruct.  And I was trying to shed a lot of things.  And I would not have the life I have now without Solano because I needed that. I needed a place where someone would just let me come and let me let go of a lot of years of shit. And then I started working at Berkeley Rep and other places and was really, really lucky to just come into contact with amazing people, especially George McGuire and Amy Potozkin, who is the casting director at Berkeley Rep, who was kind of like a second mom to me...I never wanted to audition for Juilliard.  I know this sounds crazy, but I think I was too intimidated by it.  Do you know what I mean?

Virginia:  Yeah.  I think this is something that a lot of people can relate to, the idea of Juilliard.  So before you knew what Juilliard actually was, what was your idea of it?

Daniel:  I thought it was just fancy and kind of – I didn’t really know a lot about it.  I wanted to go to DePaul because DePaul, I think, at the time had a BFA in acting but you could also work as a playwright, too.  Again, maybe I might be getting this totally wrong, but in my memory it was the only BFA program I could find where I could do both.  And I also wanted to write and try to direct and things like that.  And so I wanted to go to DePaul. And I applied to Webster, to North Carolina School of the Arts, to Juilliard and DePaul.  And I didn’t even plan on auditioning for Juilliard.  Funny thing is I got into every school except DePaul.  Which I think is kind of amazing... (Laughs.) ...I didn’t even get wait-listed to DePaul which I love.

And the only reason I auditioned for Juilliard is because of Amy. She went on this casting trip or personal trip – I’m not sure what it was.  But she came back and she saw Blood Brothers.  And I went out to her car with her… and she said, “I have this feeling you need to go to Juilliard.  And I was like, “Oh, yeah Amy, I’m not going to Juilliard.  I’m not even applying to Juilliard.”  I couldn’t even afford the hundred dollars for the fricken application.  And she said, “I will pay for your application and you’re going to apply to that school,” …So I said okay.  I mean, she was going to pay for my application so...

…Again, I would never have the life I have without George and Amy.  They’re theatre family to me.  They’re my family still.  I love them so much, and I owe them so much.  Literally, I owe them my life.  She was the reason I auditioned to that school.  I never thought I was getting a call back, and then when that happened, and I’d be there all day.

Virginia:  So you auditioned in San Francisco then?

Daniel:  I auditioned in San Francisco.

Virginia:  Tell a little bit about your experience. 

Daniel:  Actually, it was great.  I’m so glad I auditioned in San Francisco.  I’m so glad I auditioned in my home turf instead of like flying to New York ‘cause I would have felt very overwhelmed.

Virginia:  They normally do them at the ACT studios; don’t they?

Daniel:  Maybe now.  This was at the Symphony Hall Space or something like that.  It was this enormous fuckin' room.  That’s what I remember.  The room was like a quarter of a city block.  That’s how it appeared to me, anyway. ‘Cause I think it was a space they used for symphonies to rehearse, so it was this enormous, enormous space with amazing acoustics.

And I drove there with my little brother in the morning.  And I remember, in the car, we were laughing.  I remember we were listening to Oasis, I remember that --which was helping keep me calm somehow.  I think it was an Ani Difranco/Oasis mix which I think is the story of my life if you think about it...So we were listening to that, and he dropped me off and took my car ‘cause I didn’t want to pay the parking all day, 'cause I didn't have any money.  And I remember he told me a joke in the car, which will come up later.  He told me a really stupid joke ‘cause he was just trying to make me laugh.  I was really, really nervous.  So I went in.  I remember I was wearing my Angels in America t-shirt, which I always wore...And I remember I was wearing black Dickies. 

Virginia:  How old were you at this point? 

Daniel:  I think I was 21 when I went to Juilliard, so I think I was 20, maybe.  I’m 35 now, so that would make sense…And I did Launcelot Gobbo from Merchant of Venice.  And I did Treplev from The Seagull, and I did a piece from Marvin’s Room...I think I did two Shakespeare. They kept asking me for pieces.  So I started with Marvin’s Room, then I did Launcelot Gobbo, and then they asked me to do Treplev.  That’s what it was.  And so I did that.  And they worked with me quite a bit, and Michael gave me a suggestion.  I think he said that I was in a room and I was doing it to someone outside the window.  I think he said my mom or something like that, and I lost my shit which was actually good ‘cause I was very tight.  And then I was able to work.  And so they had me do, I think,  Launcelot Gobbo again.  So they worked with me a bunch in the initial audition, and then I was one of four people called back that day, one of which was Dennis whose my best friend now.  We were both called back together…So then the auditions went on and on. I went for a walk.  I remember walking around in front of the state building or the city building or whatever it is and feeling good about the audition, feeling like I got to work, feeling that they worked with me, and they were really kind to me.

Virginia:  Yeah, so what was the vibe of the people in the room?  How many people were in there?

Daniel:  It was Michael Kahn, John Stix and Liz Smith; and I think Kathy Hood was at the door.  They were all very, very cool.  They were very kind.  They were very professional, and it felt like rehearsal, which is how I’m always best in auditions.  I’m a horrible auditioner, actually.  And if the room feels like an audition, I tend to always fail.  I either always completely kick ass or completely fuck it up…I would say more often than not it’s the fuck up, not the kick ass. 

...So it felt like a rehearsal.  It felt like a work session with them.  John and Michael have since become people that mean the world to me.  John passed away, but he was a huge influence on my life.  Michael really changed my life, too.  So it’s interesting.  I did not know who they were which I’m actually happy about.  I didn’t know who Michael Kahn was or John Stix was or Liz Smith or who they had worked with, which I think was a good thing for me because I didn’t have that pressure.  I remember they told me to tell a joke, and I hate telling jokes.  I’m horrible at it.  All I could think about was the joke my brother told me.  It was, “What do you call a thousand blind lesbians in a tuna factory?  A feeding frenzy.”  John Stix cracked the fuck up, no one else laughed, and Liz Smith is gay, and I did not know this at the time.  So thank you to my brother. (Laughs.)  And so then they called me back in.  And actually I think Dennis did do his pieces again.  They did not have me do my pieces again at all.  In fact, they just talked to me.  I was very honest about my life and my circumstances. Then they had me read this clock poem with my horrible California accent.  And I think Liz Smith grimaced a few times.  And they were really kind to me.  I talked about my family a bit. I was honest about that, and that was it.

I think I got there I think like 8 – 9:00 in the morning and I think I got out around 10:30 or 11:00 at night, is my recollection.  Then I remember I walked up to the Castro because my brother was coming to pick me up.  And I went to Pasta Pomodoro, and I got the biggest fuckin' plate of pasta because I was so hungry.  And Kevin Jackson, that Australian actor that used to work at ACT.  He was in full leather chaps.  He was so cool.  I said, “Kevin, I just got called back for Juilliard.”  He was so congratulatory, and he said to me, “I think you got in.  I just have this feeling.”  And I remember that.  That meant so much to me because I’d seen him direct at ACT, and he was very nice about it. And then I let it go…I was in Charlie’s Aunt for Solano and going into rehearsals for Skylight.  And so I had that on my plate, too…

Virginia:  Did you get to go to Juilliard for their callback at the school?

Daniel:  …No, not at that time. [They didn’t have callbacks in New York back then.]

Virginia: Okay, so at that time you just received a call?

Daniel:  I was at Claire Phelan’s house because she my girlfriend at the time, and I was sleeping over there… I think I called Jason my roommate, and he told me that we had gotten the message to call Kathy Hood.  So I called her and that was that.

Virginia:  That’s crazy, so you had never actually stepped foot on the campus at Juilliard and got accepted to the school.

Daniel:  No, never. 

Virginia:  How did you decide where to go?

Daniel:  What was funny was I still waffling just because of my fear and intimidation from the school.  I was really intimidated by – you, know, I like to practice before the match instead of just diving in and playing, like Roger Federer.  I was just really scared.  I like the idea --the school I was really looking at was North Carolina School of the Arts.  And I talked to Gerald Freedman who was running the program, and he actually said I’m going to withdraw your acceptance to our school if you don’t go to Juilliard.  That’s what he told me.  He told me, you need to go to that school.  He said if you got in and they’re offering you that type of scholarship, that is where you should go.  So again, I don’t even know this man, but I owe him, wherever he is.  So I went to Juilliard.

Virginia:  Cool!  So they offered you enough financial assistance?

Daniel:  They gave me a full scholarship, but they give a lot of the kids a full scholarship.  They’re an amazing school.  They’ll make it possible for you to go if you don’t have the money.  They believe in quality that way.  I could have never afforded that school, so they gave me a full scholarship.

Virginia:  So tell me about your experience at Juilliard…

....MORE FROM DANIEL TOMORROW!!! CLIFF-HANGER, riiiiiiight?

I’ll post PART TWO of his fantastic journey through the program at Juilliard!


Side note:

Are you as in LOVE with this generous and talented man as a I am? If soooo...check out Daniel's current passion project, YOSEMITE, at the Rattlestick Playwrights Theatre, 224 Waverly Place, NY, NY 10014. Tickets are available through www.TicketCentral.com. It's a limited engagement. Previews begin January 18th. Get your tickets now! Don't miss it!



Annnnnd if you "like" the Rattlestick Facebook Page, there are DISCOUNT CODES available for tickets and profiles of the actors and all sorts of fun info to check-out and stay up-dated on Daniel and Rattlestick's future goings-ons.

Still not convinced that this is a "must-see" for the winter season? If this doesn't make you want to buy a ticket...you might want to check your pulse...

Daniel: (RE:  YOSEMITE ) This play is so much for my family who I love deeply and who I have been through a lot with, and it's especially for my brothers and sisters and my mom. There was a time that we lived in a place that was full of so many people, and especially their kids, who had such great intentions and tons of heart and imagination, but were absolutely crushed and destroyed by poverty and drugs and loss. Life can be really, really tough, but through each other and with each other I feel so many of us were able to crawl out of that pit, and I couldn't be more thankful for that and this play is about that for me. This play is so much for them and for my family, and it's crazy cause I just have no idea if it's going to mean anything to anyone else - I really hope it does and that that heart and insane struggle translates in some way, and that folks get it and love it (and the people in it) like I do, but I just don't know. It terrifies me but as with the rest of my life I feel like I'm surrounded by family and friends with this cast and crew and Rattlestick, and that gives me strength.

Loves,
V

CLICK HERE TO GO TO PART TWO.

P.S. Did my monologue practice over the phone with my Mom this time. She lives in California and hadn't heard my pieces yet. And she really loved the "themes" of the three that I chose to share with her...Which, of course, made me feel great! She even wanted to READ one of the plays! HA! Never saw THAT coming. (She's not a big "theatre" person...Other than seeing everything that I do.) I'm really glad that I got to connect with her through these monologues, which have such personal meaning to me, and that she was so enthusiastic and interested in learning more about them. Yay, Mom! Thanks for your support!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

88. In Love

"If you are doing something that you don't enjoy and you don't have the gratification of success, failure is particularly painful. But doing what you love is itself the reward." - Gretchen Rubin, The Happiness Project

You know what is the most amazing feeling in the world? Doing what you love and realizing in that very moment... that you truly LOVE it.

Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.

Just had the most kick-ass monologue coaching session with Kathryn Bild. Love this character I get to play soooo much! She has so many great ideas! Just saying the words and getting to live truthfully in her imaginary circumstances...now that's my idea of PLAY!!!! Oh, it makes me feel like a KID!

I am seriously IN LOVE with acting.

"Absence diminishes commonplace passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and kindles fire." - Francois duc de La Rochefoucauld, moralist (1613-1680)

It's so funny to me... how my hiatus from acting has made me soooooo aware of how much I relish every single moment that I get to do it now. I cannot WAIT to get back to it full-time and stop renting my soul to big-business-on-Madison-Ave.

Cannot wait to say...

"It's been fun, Madison Ave...Learned a lot from you... but I've seen the writing on the wall. You and I are not meant to be together forever. You've helped me to survive in New York and for that I am truly grateful. But it's just a matter of time before we shall be parting ways. Don't worry...there will be another happy monkey (or 20) to fill my seat. I promise. Soon you won't even remember that I was ever a part of your world. Wish I could say I'll miss you...but I just don't think so. Thanks for the support, though, and for the free lunches and for the memories. Bye-bye."

Sigh...soon... very soon.


"Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it." - Hardy D. Jackson


I have come to the realization that if I am going to contribute my life's energy to something...I want that something to be telling stories through acting...not working on Excel spreadsheets and answering phones and administratively assisting.

I could work for the rest of my life behind a desk and be very "successful" and surround myself with comforts and be safe. But... it wouldn't FEEL successful to me. Because I don't WANT to work behind a desk. I don't LOVE that kind of life. I know that I have so much more to give than my 60wpm. I want a job that MOVES me.. that challenges me!!! ... Where I can use my body, my mind, my soul, my thoughts and my brain to BE INSIDE another person's story... thus expanding my own life experience and the experiences of others.

I get so ridiculously giddy about being able to say lines and pretend to be someone else. I am a total goof-ball! It's actually embarrassing how "into it" I am. I mean, I wish I could be a little more "cool" about it...But it'd just be a freakin' lie. I am a total geek. Hee, hee!!!

Acting is so f-ing FUN!!!!!

DO THE WORK THAT YOU LOVE, PEOPLE! Whatever it is. Do it. Then sleep. Then eat. Then do more of the thing that you LOVE. Then repeat. Then take a bathroom break. Then more of the love thing. Feel your blood pumping and your heart opening? Yeah. That's IT! That's your spending your life WELL. Keep going... And then repeat. Endlessly repeat.

Loves,
V

"The best career advice to give the young is, find out what you like doing best and get someone to pay you for doing it." - Katherine Whilehaen

Sunday, November 20, 2011

66. My Bucket List: Personal Artistic Goals 2011

Bucket List: A list of things to do before you die. Comes from the term "kicked the bucket".

The below is part "bucket list," part "goals for the future," and part "ways I want to create my life." I wrote this list as a brain-storm exercise for the Juilliard Personal Statement. Probably not going to include any of it in the final draft of the statement, but I thought that the act of writing the list was valuable. I also thought that it would be an important thing to post on the blog... as a record of what I would like to do in the future. 

Who knows? Maybe I'll look back on this post years from now and be able to go through the list and check off a bunch of things...or maybe even ALL of them. Hope so!!! Wouldn't that be an awesome feeling???

Here's my Bucket List of Personal Artistic Goals 2011...

  • I want to love my life and die knowing that I lived it exactly the way I wanted to.
  • I always want to remember to be grateful for every opportunity that comes my way.
  • I want earn the respect the artists that I respect and admire as a valued artistic collaborator.
  • I want to serve our society in the best way that my unique talents will allow and inspire others to do the same.
  • I want to be able to give back to those that have been positive influences for me along the way. I would love to be a mentor to up-and-coming artists or stay involved with my former school as an alumni who gives back.
  • I want the process of “getting there” to be just as enjoyable (if not more so) than achieving my “goals."
  • I want to work on projects with passionate people that also want their art to make a difference in people’s lives.
  • I want to be a person that others enjoy working with.
  • I want to create a sustainable life for myself, financially and creatively.
  • I want to be able to pay my bills and take care of my family and thrive on the pay I receive from my acting.
  • I want to attract an agent that truly believes in my abilities and versatility as an actor, understands how to best represent me within the industry, shares my vision for my artistic career and will have an unwavering work ethic because he/she LOVES his/her job.
  • I want to have fun.
  • I would like to voice an audiobook.
  • I want to find a life partner who will love me unconditionally and will always support me in my life's work.
  • I want to constantly grow and be challenged and always pursue excellence.
  • I want to get really confident in my skills as an actor. I want to create such a strong foundation in my work, that I can look forward to a life-long career.
  • I want to work with people I LOVE and am inspired by.
  • I would like to be a regular on a televisions series that feels like a company of  super-skilled, excellence-pursuing, like-minded artists all working together to create the best show on television.
  • I want to be a part of a community of like-minded artists in New York City and Los Angeles.
  • I want to be a smart business woman.
  • I want to live debt-free.
  • I want to own my own home.
  • I want to have health insurance.
  • I want to travel and experience different cultures.
  • I want to be able to afford to fly home and see my family whenever I want to.
  • I want to originate a role on Broadway.
  • I want to write a book and have it published somewhere.
  • I want to write a play and see it produced someday.
  • I want to create a successful enough career as an artist to be able to have creative artistic choice is selecting my jobs, such that I can choose my jobs because I LOVE them and I BELIEVE in them, not because I need the money.
  • I want to be remembered as someone that left a positive impact on the world in my own small way.
  • I never want to stop learning... EVER.
  • I will stop doing all of the above… on the day I die.


What's in your bucket?

Loves,
V

"You can't always get what you want

But if you try sometimes you might find
You get what you need"
- The Rolling Stones



Saturday, November 19, 2011

65. Powerful Questions

"The questions you have to answer pertain to what, where, when and WHY. Mine pertain to how and with whom. When you know the end result, I always know the fastest way." - The Universe

Working on my personal statement today... In my comfy writing-space at home with a cup of tea and the sunshine coming through the windows and all my papers and notes scattered about me on the futon.

I am enjoying some of the questions that have come up as I've been brain-storming and journaling and exploring what I really want to say with this personal statement for my Juilliard application.

I seriously love a good, hard-core, no-nonsense, well-stated question.

I'm so grateful to have the opportunity and motivation to reflect on these life-direction types of questions. I think they are important to ask ourselves from time to time... just to check-in and make sure that our daily actions are in-tune with what our own unique hearts REALLY value.

Below are my questions... and "my answers"... Which are in no way "your answers"... As you know, you've got your own answers inside of you. So please keep in mind while reading below... that I am simply exploring these ideas and none of these answers are meant to be etched in stone (not even for myself). Ask me these same questions tomorrow and you'll get a whole new set of "answers"... none of which are wrong... none of which are right.

:-p

Just asking the question and being open to listening for the universe to bring you an answer is a step in the right direction.

"And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you." - Luke 11:9, The Bible: New Living Translation

Enjoy living in the questions...

Q: What job would your pay someone to let you do?
A: Do that.... If you aren't doing that now, do one small thing today to move yourself in the direction of doing that. You will be happy with yourself when you do.

Q: What is stopping you from becoming your "dream come true" right now?
A: Don't use FEAR of anything as an excuse... Run as fast as you can toward conquering that fear. Ask for help from experts when you need it.

Q: If you become like those you are with, who are you with that you want to become like?
A: Seek out people who inspire you and spend time with them. Learn from them. Don't waste your time on people that you don't enjoy.

Q: What is your measure of success?
A: Define it. Make it quantifiable in some way. That's the only way you'll know when you've reached it.

Q: What stories inspire you?
A: I like "rags to riches" stories. I like "overcoming the odds" stories. I like stories of successful entrepreneurs who experienced years of failure to finally rise from the ashes and do great things. I like stories of ordinary people accomplishing extraordinary things. I like stories of people who don't wait around to be saved, but choose to save themselves and help others save themselves in the process. I like funny stories that make you cry. I like stories about change... changed hearts, changed minds, changed bodies and souls.

Q: How do you see your art connecting to the world?
A: I will answer this question with another question... "What is the universal truth in this?"... I am CONSTANTLY asking myself that question, unconsciously and consciously... Especially in writing, but in acting as well... What do I mean, exactly? Well... For example, you could be doing a scene about eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich... but what's REALLY going on in that scene?... What is it that's humanly universal about the experience of eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich? Which universal truth are we trying to communicate?....  Is is about satisfying a craving? Is is about nostalgically reliving a familiar childhood experience? Is it a suicidal death-wish because you are allergic to peanut butter?

THAT is what I love about art. It can be interpreted a million different ways, by both the artist and the audience. So that's how I'd like my art to connect to the world... I would like to be a skillful enough artist to make specific circumstances and unique personal experiences feel universal through sharing my creative point-of-view. That's my idea of fun. That's how I'd like to create more empathy and connection between humans. I truly believe that's the kind of art that changes the world. Because empathy leads to new ways of thinking, which leads to new ways of reacting and eventually motivates pro-action... for the betterment and benefit of ALL people... if I have anything to do with it... and I will... and I do. And so do you!

We are all participating in artfully creating this world. So the best question is... What do you have to contribute to this art project called life? Our society, our world needs you... so GIVE what you most love to give. It will be appreciated by someone.

"One's destination is never a place, but a new way of seeing things." - Henry Miller

Always in process,
Virginia


Sunday, October 30, 2011

48. Your Creative Calling

“When you are called to create, the psychology of the endeavor… changes. Experiencing a calling creates a sense of deeper conviction, of purpose that often you, even as the creator or vision leader, don’t fully understand… 
This sense of deep commitment changes how you experience the emotions and challenges of the process. It helps steel you against the demons that dance around in your head, the resistance that taunts and teases you away from your work. It fortifies your uncertainty scaffolding, giving more ability to lean into risk and exposure, to act when you’re being judged from all sides. Judgment be damned, you’re doing what you’re here to do. 
When you are driven by a calling or a deeply personal quest and you allow that calling to inspire action, you live in the world differently. You do a thousand little things you’ve never done before. You act and interact with more confidence and vitality. Your personal energy changes. The way you speak, the way you carry yourself, your willingness to move heaven and earth and to share and evangelize your vision become palpable manifestations of your will to succeed. 
You begin to radiate the quest. You come alive. And people around you not only feel it, but become drawn to it. And to you… Purpose and passion enchant people. They want to be around you. They want to help you. They want to rally to your cause... 
You may have experienced the power of being called to create, either as the visionary or the one captivated by someone else's vision. It may well have been more compelling than any well-constructed argument for action. 
But in the end, such a calling is often based on a blend of unyielding faith and deep conviction that "this must be done." Nothing more, nothing less. And on the backs of that hard-to-defend faith and conviction lie some of the greatest creations and careers the world has seen." 
-- Jonathan Fields, author of Uncertainty: Turning Fear & Doubt Into Fuel For Brilliance

You were put on this plant to do something GREAT. To contribute to the world in that way that only YOU can. Commit to doing that thing that you cannot NOT do. Let your light SHINE. Be dedicated to the quest of generously sharing your gifts with the world and the world will support you abundantly.

I am reading Uncertainty right now... and I have to say that it's completely on-point with my life and my heart and my thoughts and my philosophy and well... everything. So if anything that I've written over the past couple of months has resonated with you in any way... I urge you to go out and purchase this book or click on the link above and get it at Barnes&Noble online.

Reading this book may totally ANNOY you with all this motivation to do something bigger and greater and SCARIER than you ever thought yourself capable of doing. So if you're interested in sitting on your boo-tay and eating bon-bons and letting these precious moments of your life tick by and thinking to yourself, "If only I could... but... ugh... I can't... so what's the point in even trying?"... Then DON'T even think about touching this book.

Just sayin...

The quote I've included in this post is just a tiny nugget of the solid-gold insight into greatness contained within it's pages.

Way to go, Jonathan Fields!!!

Every chapter reveals another keystone to understanding the psychology of the creative process and gives simple tools to help overcome the fear and resistance we all experience when trying to do something that we've never done before and is waaaaaay outside of the comfort-zone... but that we feel MUST be done.

I am so encouraged and inspired by this book that I just bought four more copies to give as gifts. True story.

I cannot say enough about it's wonderfulness... Except that I can't put it down and I feel like I want to call Jonathan and thank him personally for writing it.

Seriously... don't pass on the opportunity to let his words soak into your brain and experience the alchemy that will inevitably result. He's like the Rumplestiltskin of the creative mind... spinning normal thoughts of complacency into the GOLD of action.

Wishing you all a golden Sunday afternoon.

Love,
V

"The most successful people in the world are comfortable with discomfort, embrace uncertainty, and have fun with fear. Read this brilliant book and you will too." - Michael Port, author of The Think Big Manifesto (commenting on Uncertainty by Jonathan Fields)